heart sinks on the A train

Heart sinks on the A train 
He looks like you your hair your demeanor 
Far Rockaway bound 
always smaller somehow in person than you were 
are 
were 
in my mind 
Eileen Myles and a Turkish towel
Someone help me I need to escape 
in a blue wig
with a top knot
toss toss 
And you should text your secret boyfriend 
in a little row boat under boardwalks
like a secret meeting 
in the moonlight 
Before the play starts 
Do it again
A girl in a book I read when I was a child 
Do it again 
Far Rockaway
She loved the words 
The syllables on her tongue 
“Rockaway”
“Rockaway”
I remember the girl I’ve forgotten the book 
It’s you it’s you it isn’t but it’s you