sad eyes

he said “I really thought you loved me”
words muffled by sand-laced wind 
truth be told 
I really thought I loved him too 
and in some moments
some dance floors
maybe I did 
but in a way that was not the same
he had such overwhelmingly sad eyes
they held me but scared me 
and often 
his sad eyes made me sad too 
or revealed in my eyes 
some other kind of sadness 
all my own
I wiped sand from his elbows
left then right
I cracked a joke
I licked my lips 
he watched
I could feel his eyes on my tongue
all that sadness